The Unhelpable

letdot52
When I was 13, I helped my friend end his porn addiction. I felt so great. I thought to myself "Wow. I actually have the ability to make a difference in people's lives". Since then i've helped many people. Helping them feel better about themselves, stop fighting and become friends, or just bring them closer to Christ. Before joining this sight I thought that there was no one who I wouldn't be able to bring closer to Jesus, who I wouldn't be able to help, I was wrong.

Before I joined, I decided that I would do everything I could to benifit people and help them with anything they're going through. I met some people with problems who needed a friend and I became that friend. But what happens when you meet the unhelpable? What happens when you just can't help them? When no matter what you do to try and show them God, they just don't want your help, they want you to leave them alone and let them suffer the terrible fate you know is waiting for them. What then?

When we met, I got that feeling that says "Here's the next person. Time to show them God". I thought it would be like all the rest, but it wasn't. No matter what I said, he/she didn't care. He/She always had something to say in order to deny me, deny God. I did everything I knew to do and it wasn't good enough. I wanted to be friends but I guess we never will be. Maybe we weren't meant to be friends. Maybe I failed him/her. Maybe I was suppose to be the one who made a difference in his/her life and I failed. Maybe I was the one God sent and I failed.

Maybe God sent the wrong person. I wasn't good enough. I couldn't do it. Maybe God should have sent someone else to do the job. Or maybe this person is the one thing I never thought I would meet. The one thing I didn't even think exsisted. The one thing that I can't find an answer for, and no matter what I do i'll never be able to bring them to Christ and show them the life God want them to live. The Unhelpable.

Maybe I was wrong. Maybe it does exist. Maybe you can't help everyone. I guess there's a reason Hell has to be real. I just never thought someone might end up there after meeting me. I guess I thought I was better than I am. After all, I'm only human and there's only so much I can do to help someone. I never thought I would say this but...I can't do it. I'm just not good enough.

I hope that one day, he/she will meet someone who will be able to help him/her turn to God. But I guess i'm not that person. I thought I was ready to help anyone but I know now that I wasn't ready, and probably never will be ready for, The Unhelpable.

Comments

Aww, this is so sad! You need a hug! <3 - Wolftail

You helped your friend to end his porn addiction that is really great.. - paasadani

Great post - PatrickStar

One of the most true, and beautiful blogs I have ever read. You deserve a hug. <3 - Wolftail

This is sad - JaysTop10List

Sometimes, all you can do is pray. - Therater2

One of the best posts ever - Animefan12

"I know I'm not strong enough to be everything that I'm suppose to be. I give up. I'm not strong enough. Hands down, mercy, wont You cover me? Lord, right now, I'm asking You to be strong enough. I'm not strong enough." -Matthew West, Strong Enough.

Prayer can go where you cannot, continuously pray for this person to be shown God one day. Or maybe, instead of telling him about the Gospel, show what it means to be Christian through your actions. Some people turn away from the idea of God and the Bible, but showing forgiveness, compassion, respect, and love for everyone-what the Bible tells us to do-we display how amazing Jesus' teachings are, instead of telling the person. They observe our good actions and realize the power God has in His people - keycha1n

Such sad.such great.much wow - CerealGuy

The reason I became an atheist is because I was always scared that the devil had control of my life. I feel a lot better now cause I know that since I don't believe that the devil exists, nothing can ever hurt me. I'm not saying this to encourage people to do bad things, I'm just saying people chose to not believe in God for a reason. But it's fine with me if you believe in God. I'm not trying to force my beliefs on you or anything, I'm just telling you my reasons for why I'm an atheist. It's completely fine with me if you believe in God. - visitor

"I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind. The God of Angel Armies, is always by my side. The One who reigns forever, He is a friend of mine, the God of Angel Armies is always by my side."
-Whom Shall I Fear, Chris Tomlin.

Nothing can ever hurt me when I'm with God, especially not the devil. - keycha1n

That...was...so...beautiful! - RiverClanRocks

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