I'm so sorry...

MontyPython Guys, I've been thinking about this whole entire situation for the past week. Just like The Clash said,

"Should I stay or should I go..?"

And I've decided to stay, but here's my deal.

I'm gonna get all of this stressed cleared up first, then I'll return to being constant on the site and return to making lists and posts. :)

But, what I want to say is, I'm sorry for the scare. I jumped into conclusions and I left my closest friends on here sad and shocked, which I deeply regret.

Maybe it's just mood swings, hormones, I dunno. I'm not a kid anymore, but I feel like one. I have to face into adulthood, but it's tough! Hey, I gotta fight through it in the end. :)

I hope you all understand. Judge and insult me if you'd like, but I'm staying. ^^

- Monty

Comments

YESS YOU'RE BACK! - Garythesnail (3/7/2016)

And don't apologize because we all love you so much we couldn't stay mad at you. But I love you more than everyone else, ok? - Garythesnail (3/10/2016)

I don't know, Mikey. :) I'd say you and another friend of mine on here tie. - MontyPython (3/10/2016)

Ok, I can accept a tie. - Garythesnail (3/11/2016)

Who's the other friend, though? - Garythesnail (3/13/2016)

I'm glad for you. Some people simply don't have the willpower when they're stressed. Apology accepted; there's no need for one. - PositronWildhawk (3/8/2016)

Ok cool - 2storm (3/8/2016)

I don't think you did anything "wrong" or that you need to apologize about. You're trying to find balance between many things you want to do and have to do, and that's often not easy. You do have a lot of things to tend to, scholastics and the other activities and social life with college, employment if you're keeping that, your family and other friends.
Your announcement was disappointing to many because you are so loved and appreciated, and because you give so much cheer and goodwill to others. But I think most everyone supports you in whatever you feel you need/choose to do, especially whatever you can do to reduce your stress and find as much comfort and balance in your life as possible. You have to take care of yourself, first.
And you did try to explain your uncertainty, expressed some confusion and/or conflicting emotions. You'd also written that you'd lost some interest so who'd want you to try to pretend otherwise? And when you find other things you like and want to do, you need to explore those as well. Focus, juggle, a constant balancing of priorities. Life can go from being slow-paced and uneventful to being overcrowded, rushed and full very quickly, and especially during the stage you've entered now, probably into your career...etc. There'll be some lulls here and there but usually the pace is somewhat rapid, and you do want, I believe, a variety of experiences and avenues to explore. It's a balancing act - as Bob Seger wrote "...deadlines and commitments; what to leave in, what to leave out."

Also, just want to add that you shouldn't feel pressured or obligated to often make lists and posts to be part of the community. You've been a frequent and constant contributor but that isn't required nor should it be expected. There shouldn't be pressure to do that, in my opinion.

It was considerate of you to try to explain or announce what you were thinking instead of disappearing and leaving so many wondering.

There's always some sadness that comes with friendship and caring, and while we think of ourselves somewhat and don't want the loss of missing you or other dear people we've become accustomed to being around, changes must come at times. The most important thing we'd hope for is for you to have as much happiness, peace and contentment that you can find, and if/when you can share that with any of us, that's a bonus. If you go on to something "better" in your present and future, those who care will be smiling for you for that.

You share what you can when you can. No one can be everything for everyone they care about.

Hopefully, we'll share again sometime, and appreciate that blessing of fortune as much as we appreciate what's passed.
These are/have been the "good ol' days"; it's the wishing for more of them that concerns us, but also helps us value them.

(Yeah I know, too long, stfu Billy or go make your own damn post 😜) (And you don't need to print this, MP. I often need an editor) - Billyv (3/8/2016)

Let the length of this response highlight how much we all care for you, Ashley. - PositronWildhawk (3/8/2016)

I joined this site thinking I wouldn't meet anyone here and just be a forgotten outcast... Now I'm fulfilled with supportive people who have made me one of the most followed users on here.

I was completely mistaken before. - MontyPython (3/8/2016)

Good you're back - bobbythebrony (3/8/2016)

YAY! Glad your back! - cosmo (3/8/2016)

"You need not apologize," Shakespeare said. If you are stressed take your time. You don't need to worry I don't want you to die of a heart attack. Then you will never come back😖. But just take your time no one is rushing you. - 2storm (3/8/2016)

Glad you returned! Also, as others said, no need for apologizing - Martinglez (3/12/2016)

Glad you changed your mind. - visitor (3/12/2016)

Woo! - RiverClanRocks (3/13/2016)