Top 10 Things You'll Only Notice When You're Alone
I was alone when I thought of the idea for the list.everything is still silent & quiet, it gets boring more often than not doing everything myself, hobbies aren't the same anymore, I usually listen to my own heart beat/beats. I don't know what else to do with myself most of the time anymore since everyone has has left me behind & abandoned me permanently, I avoid looking at couples because I'm by myself, my room is so quiet without anyone but myself, I avoid going online because I'm by myself
I've spent 2 decades alone by myself taking care of my family & 💩 keeps getting difficult each year, I once wanted to have a family for myself & after awhile from my love life isn't worth working nor investing in/on anymore due to everyone collectively going against me using mind games against me, I hear my own heart beating due to how stress & traumatized I am coming from a dysfunctional family, everything I hoped for gone to waste receiving nothing in return multiple times & receiving nothing also increased my stress & anxiety levels since I have no one else to rely on nor support me & supporting myself is like I keep going back to hell as rehab a rehab I never wanted to be rehab for me. I'm used to being alone & I avoid everyone, people & those that seem trustworthy aren't worth it nor no matter the situational circumstances & repercussions are possibly involved with them, I rather never celebrate Valentine's Day Christmas nor New Years/Year's ever again because I have multiple responsibilities overlapping each other that I can't meet expectations due to stress fatigue weakening my body & my wellbeing, I did what I did for a reason & dating/love has systematically lost its meaning due to everything I've gone/been through repeatedly throughout numerous social cycles