A Final Farewell

Mumbizz01
I was meant to write one of these many months ago (As you may notice on my bio), but I completely forgot all about it and never done one. I was only just reminded that I had an account on here yesterday and finally made the decision to write what's really been going on.

As you all may know, I'm not this "Bizz Manson" guy. I'm not 22 years old, I don't live in a mansion, I don't have a daughter, I don't work at a gas station, I was never born in Germany and moved to Australia. In fact, I'm a 16-year-old teenager by the name "Ben" who was born in Victoria, Australia. It was very late 2014 when I made an account on here and I was 11 years old, so because of my undeveloped brain, I made a lot of decisions that I now regret. (Pretending to retire like 3 times, and getting upset over not getting popular). I'm honestly surprised that no one really pointed that out that I wasn't acting the age that I lied about.

I don't remember why I lied about my background. It might've been because if I actually was honest about my age, I would be bullied off the website. Before I made an account, I had created the list of "Best LL Cool J" songs and I had posted comments to lists that I'm too embarrassed to link you all to the pages.

So when I created my account by the name "Mumbizz01", the main intent was to just get popular. So looking at my old lists, you can easily tell that I'm not even trying and obviously phoning it in. So when my intent somehow became a reality, I couldn't keep it because of the many mistakes I made. (Pretending to be depressed and retire like three times, and trying to gain attention). So because of all this, I was thrown off the radar, and I tried everything to get it all back. Looking back on all this, It's extremely hard to read and accept that I made these decisions. But at the same time, I was 12 and didn't have a filter, so I was bound to make mistakes and turn people away.

So months later, I stopped coming to this website and forgot everything about it. I would every once in a while return for only three days, make a few comments and then disappear. I think at one point I even announced that I was returning, but never delivered that promise, but someone can correct me on that if that's true. Also, there was a time where I was close to requesting termination of this account, but I learnt other time you can't erase what you posted on here, so I just left it there.

I came out back in September that I wasn't "Bizz Manson" and said that I would write a post explaining everything, but never got around to it. So this is the post that I said I would do. This post is most likely going to be the final thing I ever post on here since I'm too embarrassed to carry on with this account. I could start over and make a new account under a new identity, but I fear that I'm gonna continue to make the same mistakes and the whole thing will probably repeat itself. So far now, I'm officially retiring for good. I will be responding to any questions and comments below. I thank you all for having the time to read this post and understanding where I'm coming from.

~ Ben

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