Worst Mental Illnesses

The Top Ten

1 Schizophrenia

There are voices and thoughts. They won't stop coming inside your head, no matter how hard you try. When I say quiet, they will talk again. My mom and other people repeatedly calling my name is the scariest. Even when you're silent, it's so noisy in your head like it's just going to explode. Then there goes shadow people peeping in the windows. I always had to close the windows and bring the curtains down so that they won't see me. I would avoid looking at the mirror sometimes because people coming from the other world might see me. I can't remember things properly. Like, what dress did I wear yesterday or earlier. I even experienced one time, when someone suddenly asked my name, I totally forgot. I paused to myself and had to look at the ID I was wearing to remember. Sometimes, I forget my birthday and age. I would prefer not to go outside much because I worry that intruders would go inside the house. I can't sleep because I can hear sounds that someone's trying to break down our ...more

I'm an extreme paranoid schizophrenic and I alsi have depressive personality disorders and DID (disociative identity disorder) Having a long range of mental illnesses I still feel my schizophrenia affects me most because I get so paranoid at people I lose relationships with people I really care about and it seems I have a dullness of happiness, and sympathy for certain things, not to mention my hallucinations of demons haunting me and one making home inside my head, voices telling me to do things that are morally wrong to. Most people but I. Feel it isn't wrong, my. Beliefs are totally distorted but right I feel death is the only fairness in life I feel the only way for. People to not be in pain is to die, countless suicide attempts and loads of guilt. This is why I believe schizophrenia is by far the worst mental illness

I am a schizophrenic... It's the worst thing that has happened to me so far but also the best thing. Losing the sense of reality has made me appreciate what other people take for granted. Never piety a person with a mental illness, physical illness or any negative aspect they are born with as a human being, pity the ones who embrace negativity through their lifetime and die without humanity.

I am truly sorry to anyone who may have to put up with this in their daily lives, I personally have never suffered from this but it sounds so traumatising I hope everyone who has to go threw with this gets better.

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2 Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

People have no idea... it's not just washing your hands 6 times a day.. I had much things I had to do; Everything I did, I had to do it 2 times and then again but in the opposite direction, I was not allowed to breathe when I looked at people or when they were in my sight, when I did look at them I had to breath in so much that I passed out, People couldn't touch me or things in my room (even the floor) and when they did I had to get their bacteria off of it and then sort of slap it of and then slap it off of my hands again and everything in my room was not allowed to change, I had to pick up everything from the street... leafs, plastic, stones and even food. I couldn't throw it away too. It drove me CRAZY. I tried to commit suicide almost every week.. I was young so I didn't know how but I tried to hit my artery with a screw.. it hurt so much but it didn't work, I cut myself, I was in therapy, I tried so hard.. to live happy.. but this gets you too depressed.. life gets so hard.. I ...more

I've had OCD since I was ten, or that when I was diagnosed with it at least. And it sucks. I don;t have the kind where it germs, germs, germs, germs, germs, I have the kind where everything has to be perfectly symmetric and even. For awhile I couldn't sit still because more pressure would be on my butt than the top of my thighs, or sleep because no matter which position I was in there would be more pressure on one side than another. I started cutting not long after that, and even that had to be symmetrical. When I broke my arm in sixth grade my parents had to watch me so I would;t break my other one. If I got in a situation where I couldn't even up I would have to physically harm myself; once I gave myself a concussion. I also couldn't write for the longest time because I'd write it with my left hand, then erase with my left hand then write with my right hand and erase with my right hand and it took me so long to correct the pattern so it would feel right, right, right, right, right, ...more

I live with impulsive thoughts and actions. My thoughts are violent, disturbing. I'm a gentle and kind individual who will never harm anyone or any animal. So my illness targets what I love most and shows up in my head in a way that breaks my heart and makes me sick to my stomach. Images of killing my beloved pets, raping people, being a cannibal or a necrophiliac. Even writing this down is giving me anxiety. When the thoughts come, I have to reverse them in my mind or by compulsing my body (re closing the door, walk over a floor tile, even things like spitting food out in my hand and eating it back.) And I have to think a good thought (I am a protector, I will never so such a thing) in order to be calm again. If I forget what action I did or what I was thinking before I had my impulsive thought, I get severe panic attacks and I think that these terrible things will come true. But people have to understand. I WILL NEVER DO SUCH THINGS. I wouldn't even think about it. They just come by ...more

I cannot begin to explain how much this horrifyingly uncontrollable disorder eats at ones very being. Take me for example. Say I pick up a spoon then I get flashes of traumatizing thoughts, my mind is like "OK, now touch that spoon 4 times. Now another 4. OK let's just do 4, 4times." & I can't stop. I know what I'm doing makes no sense but there's that little voice in the back of my mind saying "OK but if you don't do it maybe these bad thoughts WILL happen! " & I just surrender to the ticks.

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3 Bipolar Disorder

I'm not ashamed to be Bipolar nor should I be this illness has tormented everyday of my teen life and into adulthood yet it has also taught me beautiful things mainly to cherish those while you have them because you won't have them forever because once they realize there is more to your personality then extreme happiness mainly what I have learned from being Bipolar is that there is no such thing as unconditional love form anyone and that egos are fragile I also have PTSD I regularly debate killing myself but when I am happy it's the most wonderful feeling ever imagine twenty percent of the time you are on ecstasy ad eighty percent of the time you can barely remember simple facts because your emotions are so down that's all that you can think about it's like every mental illness turned into one and it is completely random when you feel what no control of your emotions but many people with who have come to terms with Bipolar disorder are the sweetest people I have ever met because ...more

I have Bipolar with psychosis and severe anxiety and I admit most of my time with this diagnosis I was embarrassed about it but not because of Bipolar itself, because people think it just means you're moody. COULDN'T BE MORE WRONG. Bipolar has the highest suicide rate above all other mental illnesses by a lot including borderline, depression and Schizophrenia. Bipolar feels like your brain is the rope in a Tug-Of-War match between Extreme mania and crippling depression. My first psychotic episode I saw demons and was convinced they were trying to kill me. It screwed up so much I had going for me, good grades, friends, and happiness. I spent all my hard earned money on useless junk, did weird things things that made me lose friends, I had violent urges (i didn't act on), hearing voices, not sleeping for days, seeing demons and alternative realities. My family "didn't believe" in mental illness and disowned me. I was homeless and bipolar I tried to kill myself then. Luckily I got help ...more

Am a male (37 years) and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder since I was 28. It's been 9 years I am taking medication and it was getting worse. I did many research on the internet for a long time and I think I found the permanent cure. It is simply meditation! yesss I sit quietly (eyes closed with a straight spine and focusing on my breath) for 30 minutes twice daily. I simply put my headphones on and listen to relaxing meditative music which you can find on YouTube (i listen to Paul Collier's music and found it very relaxing! ).

Now after 11 months of doing it I reduced my medication by 50 percent! I am planning to stop my medication after 7 months (which means after 18 months of meditation).

Believe me meditation can reverse any mental illness it is like a training for the mind! With meditation I am now finally in the driver seat of my own mind and it's amazing! I wasn't like that when I was taking 100 percent of my medication dose (now am on 50 percent). So just sit ...more


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4 Borderline Personality Disorder

BPD is such a terrible, terrible thing. I am horrified at myself for the way I act toward myself and the way I treat others. I had a lot of cases in my childhood of being left behind by my parents and abandoned by my friends and they were some of my worst memories. It's such a strange disorder because I can't trust myself or anyone else. It's almost like my entire persona changes day by day or week by week. I have such powerful and explosive emotions that I slip into erratic, psychotic, and sometimes catatonic states. In some extreme cases, I've even dissociated and nearly got myself killed. All I want is to be loved and understood, but that's impossible when you can't love or understand yourself. I subconsciously pick friends that are emotionally fragile so I can get in their heads more easily and keep them close, then my impulsiveness can cause me to abuse them. I always present myself to be kind, talented, understanding, and respectable, so people are drawn to me, but I fear that ...more

I was Diagnosed with Bpd at age 16, right when it had become its worse. After I was diagnosed things made much more since, why I always felt alone, empty. It's a chronic pain. Not knowing who you are, how to act around people, what to say. It's like you wanna be loved so badly, so deeply, but one comes to close you blame them for being cruel to you and then the other second you want them around. No one knows how to treat you, their walking eggshells around. You view yourself as nothing, and other days you view yourself as something bigger then others. It's a daily second guessing. A push and pull game you play without realizing. Pain you have no control over and hopelessness that you will ever find love or if anyones ever going to stick around or if anyone is ever going to understand. You are in constant fear of abandonment. Your coping skills are not so great, a personal story of mine I began self harm at a very young age I was 9. My life was full of neglect from parents and family. ...more

I am not diagnisticated, but yes, I am pretty sure I have Borderline. And it's really horrible. I talk and after that I regret all the things that was said. I hate myself, but I'm still alive because I love my family too much. Only my best friend, with whom I have strange relationship because of my impulsivity, knows about it, but I regret that I told her. I don't think I deserve to be happy because of my thoughts and actions. The only thing I want to do is to become numb, in this case I won't hurt people and will be more happy. But I don't, I can't do this. I want to talk, but I know I will regret everything. I want to become friends with someone, but I know they will hate me, like my best friend sometimes hates me and I hate, sometimes, almost every person. I want and don't want to become more sociable at the same time. Sometimes I cut myself because I want to punish me. I just want to cry, but if somebody will see me, I will regret this, like I regretted it in the past. I look ...more - Kamyru

I struggle with both bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder.. I personally feel like the ranking should be BPD over bipolar. my bipolar takes over my mood and sleep and has been treated for the most part and is balancing out okay. with bipolar you have your ups and downs but with BPD it is a never ending insecurity that you can't get rid of. I struggle with having a lot of anxiety about the way I look because I feel like sense I'm so messed up on the inside I can cover it up with make up and good looks. well in reality no matter what I do or how many people think I look okay I feel like the most disgusting ugliest person that ever lived. I have became very anti social and I'm shutting everyone out because I feel like such a disappointment. I just feel like everyones lives would be easier if I just died or hide from everyone so that I'm not a problem. so that's what I've been doing for a while and it's sad because I've learned that the only person that feels this horrible ...more

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5 Depression

I have been diagnosed with extreme severe major depression. Since I was a child the only thing I've ever wanted was to be happy, yet I am convinced that will never happen. Everyday I struggled just to wake up and move off from my bed, instead it seemed more soothing to close my eyes and wish I had passed on. I had night terrors of being mutilated, and one dream I can't think about with out being nervous of dreaming about it. The dream bring you through every level of fear you can think of until you can't handle and you wake up sweating gasping and thinking about the repulsive things you had just seen. I hardly sleep. I have no energy, confidence, social skills, happiness, drive, sexual drive, hopes, or dreams. Everything I do I have to force myself to do. I think of myself as I'm a repulsive individual, I am nothing. I deserve nothing. I constantly think about why I am alive if nothing in my life makes any sense, or why everyone around me seems fine and I am not. I am much like your ...more - LyranGod

Depression is an overwhelming nothingness and apathy that envelops the victim and forces rapid deterioration from the inside out. Depression is similar to the process of termites consuming the core of a healthy tree, so that everything appears natural and beautiful on the outside, yet the center has already been hollowed by the deadly destruction. Suicide is when that tree collapses because of a lack of people who cared enough to support the degenerated tree. Depression is characterized by a pain so severe, that even through the prison of rational thought, an individual would commit suicide because nothing, not even the grief experienced by the person's loved ones, could possibly compare to the ever increasing agony. Depression is the knowledge that no matter how many medications are forced down one's throat, how many seemingly useless years of therapy the individual must endure, the plague will never cease to haunt and torture and massacre. Depression is not weak. Depression is not ...more

Depression always finds a way to make even the best situation seem irrelevant and all bad situations seem like the worst thing in the world. All you want to do is lie in bed feeling utterly miserable. Eventually you feel so fed up with yourself and your life you try to end it.

I have a type of autism spectrum disorder known as Asperger's Syndrome and this makes it impossible for me to socialise or even feel normal. I also had suspected paranoia which pushed away every relationship I ever had. As a result, I spend recess just feeling magnificent lonely and miserable, watching other people enjoy themselves. The misery just stuck with me after a while no matter where I was or whether I was lonely or not and I then became majorly depressed.

People rarely asked if I was okay and I would just try to smile and say I was fine even though my heart was broken, unable to be fixed. People then just assumed I was just strange and liked to be alone which is untrue. They shunned me and ...more

For me it all started in depression. then the other mental illnesses started happening.

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6 Antisocial Personality Disorder

I have this and I feel nothing for anyone I once pulled a knife on someone they were so scared on the verge of tears all I did was smile it was I still don't regret it but others would say the worst part is that I need to see people die to feel normal so I watch lots of gore and when I watch it I feel so relieved in real life I would never admit to having this but
here I feel fine talking about also at school I hate the other kids so much I feel like stabbing them or ephxyating them I want to kill them so so badly but I restrain myself for my only fear is being locked away I have no remorse when people die I fake emotions to look normal otherwise when my so called friends try to tell me jokes I don't laugh or smile I really only pay attention to one person and it's this girl I would murder her boyfriend to be with her I'm seriously considering it he makes me so angry ugh he's worthless just like everyone else well everyone except her she is the only valuable thing to me but ...more

I think this disorder should be #1. And it has nothing to do with if the person can get to work on time or keep a steady job. It has to do with its consistent "manipulative" nature due to the inability to feel empathy for others. This disorder was formerly called "psychopath," meaning psychologically damaged. I have severe OCD and am on the bipolar spectrum, and during one of my manic episodes, I met an antisocial personality disorder sufferer. I thought he was bipolar at first, but he quickly picked up what I liked, and emulated it perfectly. I smoked pot last night while I was hanging out with him (he did not smoke) and I started recognizing that he does not meet the "criteria" for bipolar disorder. His eyes were what gave away his disorder, they were empty when he was not trying to impress me.

An ASPD person can be in a long-term relationship with someone and have children with that person and then completely destroy all there lives on a whim (or many, continuous whims). They can appear nice enough for long periods of time, as long as their companion is on their internal list of people they find useful. As soon as that changes or they get bored enough to want a thrill, they reveal their inner monster and can start having sex with numerous strangers they find online and poisoning their long-time companion and endangering and lying to their children. All because it gives them a sick pleasure. And claiming it's their companion who is crazy the whole time. The heart of evil.

It's exactly what it sounds like, you're anti-social. You're terrified you will be judged by everyone you see, someone will make contact with you in anyway possible. It's a terrible feeling, one of the worst.

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7 SchizoAffective Disorder

Its like being tied to a chair and tortured your entire life. By midgets. Constant yammering auditory hallucinations who spend their time telling you they can steal your personality traits and characteristics. I walk around with a headache all day and sometimes have trouble concentrating. You can't really hear or see perfectly all the time either if the hallucinations become too powerful.

I noticed that a lot of the time the stuff they're saying has a significance to the present or obvious future. Usually they'll jay embarrass me but I can usually find a good reason for what they're talking about in the room. That's how I always know it's a delusion. My brain seems to know what going on, but for some reason it has to talk constantly.

If I get nervous or feel the pressure of anxiety my brain picks extreme topics to hallucinate about like terrorism or violence, or sometimes character defects. I can't always feel everything with my body like walking or moving. And sometimes ...more

This disorder doesn't have as many votes as the others because it doesn't receive as much attention in the news or media. I actually have bipolar 1, which has been terrible for me. I've spent five months of my life psychotic, been involuntarily committed three times due to severe mania, and have had years of depression. I've lost nearly everything I've valued in life due to this illness. I could vote for my illness, and also for scizophrenia, as my grandma had that disorder and I can see how it devastated her life, but schizoaffective disorder is a combination of the two. I have periods of normalcy between my manias and depressions, and my grandma didn't have to deal with the mood swings. I only have psychosis when I'm manic, but those suffering from schizoaffective disorder can have psychosis even when they are not manic or depressed. It's not as well known as the others, but I imagine schizoaffective disorder is the worst.

It's been a few months since I was released from the hospital for my first major psychotic episode. I've been bipolar for almost ten years since my world changed with constant depersonalization at age 12. Nothing ever feels real, I barely feel any emotions except anxiety now when I start to think about what's left for my future. That's not entirely true actually, I sit on either end as manic (very confident and sometimes very aggressive, though that's more related to psychosis) and feeling like nothing matters (depressed). If it weren't for my parents I would probably be homeless without medication. For some people that's a reality which horrifies me. I feel like I've experienced almost every mental illness except personality disorders but this is my diagnosis. I have rare moments where I just feel normal, but the depersonalization never goes away. I would never wish this on anybody.

Totally whack diisease

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8 Multiple Personality Disorder

I have multiple personality disorder and I believe it should be#2 on this list I have 3 alternate personalities besides me and its hell having this disorder because one minuet your fine and your you then the next thing you know its been days or weeks that another personality has been out and you didn't even kniw it was happening. One of my alternates would cut my arms from my wrist half way down my arm both arms and my mom or husband would find me just laying and the bathroom now I can't even stand a paper cut so I know I couldn't do that to myself so it would be days or maybe the next day I would come back too and my arms would be wrapped up and hurting and burning so bad and I didn't know what was going on, that same alternate made me overdose and be and a coma for 11 days it just caused harm to me. My protective alternate Hannah she comes out when something is too hard or difficult for me or my mind too handle then she comes out to deal with the conflict and usually causes more ...more

It's now called Dissociative identity disorder. I personally believe it should be higher. All mental illnesses are bad but some of the illnesses ahead of this are side effects of this disorder. It's hell because you feel trapped inside, you can't trust anyone especially yourself. You could seriously hurt someone or yourself. I'm not sure the exact statistics but people with this disorder have one of the highest suicide numbers among mental illnesses.

This should be above where it is. It's like you constantly don't know what you're going to do next. It's hard to cope because you never know who you are or how much you hurt the people you love. No one understands. It's Living Hall.

I don't if it's for real but I think I had this kind of mental illness, it happens almost every time that I drasticly change phases, my friends always say at first I was too kind, smiling and laughing with. Then suddenly, out of the blue I became irritable and very impatient. And I know I'm not that kind of person, I am very self absorbed. My college classmates told me I was a loner. Now I don't who's the real me, the kind hearted, the loner, or the war freak.

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9 Autism Spectrum Disorders

I have pdd nos which is an autism spectrum disorder and was diagnosed when I was 3 1/2 and now I am 14 People don't notice it in me because I don't have echolalia and I don't have to go to any special needs classes. I have a really hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and even on paper. As I am writing this I don't really even know what to write. When I get super mad and feel the need to shout something, I don't know what to say. I also have very hard time understanding emotions. I don't know why someone would rather be happy than sad. To me, their kinda just the same. I get both emotions obviously, but I can't really understand them. I have a lack of empathy which is something people get confused with sympathy. Sympathy is feeling for someone while empathy is feeling with someone. For example, sympathy is feeling bad for someone when they are having a bad day while empathy is feeling good because you made someone happy. When I do good things to others I don't feel happy with ...more

I have pdd nos which is an autism specturm disorder and was diagnosed when I was 3 1/2 and now I am 14. People don't notice it in me because I don't have echolalia and I don't have to go to any special needs classes. I have a really hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and even on paper. As I am writing this I don't really even know what to write. When I get super mad and feel the need to shout something, I don't know what to say. I also have very hard time understanding emotions. I don't know why someone would rather be happy than sad. To me, their kinda just the same. I get both emotions obviously, but I can't really understand them. I have a lack of empathy which is something people get confused with sympathy. Sympathy is feeling for someone while empathy is feeling with someone. For example, sympathy is feeling bad for someone when they are having a bad day while empathy is feeling good because you made someone happy. When I do good things to others I don't feel happy with ...more

I have autism. If you don't, just imagine this. You are in a world, where when things change, you can't change. And when it come to just basic communication, it is horrible. It's hard to make friends because you don't know what to say, and it's almost impossible to get a boy/girlfriend because you just freeze when you try to say something. I only have a medium-light autism, which isn't the worst thing in the world, but someone in my class has a very heavy version, and can barely talk, and has stayed back a lot of years. If you are looking at the heavy side of autism, it should be at least number 3, and even the medium light version I have is terrible. I do have friends, but they came very slowly, and I have never had a girlfriend and probably won't for a couple more years. Although it has all of these bad effects, there are also some good ones. You can remember things much better, but it's not always the things you want to remember. The worst part about autism is that people think ...more

Number 9#? It should be put at number 1# for sure... I suffer from high-functioning autism, and though I want a normal life with friends and girlfriends I've got no one, not even my family I'm going to rot alone untill I die.

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10 Anxiety Disorders

Basically imagine that feeling you have when your about to fall out of a chair but you don't quite. That's what it's like to have a panic attack but for much much longer. And if you have anxiety you can have quite a few of those a week. These disorders can drive you crazy. I was diagnosed with it when I was 6 and I wouldn't eat, drink, sleep, or go anywhere just because of the fear of the unknown. I almost had to get fed with IVs because I wouldn't eat and it was so horrible! No matter what I ever get this will always be the worst because I can't get it to go away. I'm 11 now and it's gotten a little better, I eat now, but still. The stuff that lives in my brain is worse than any creature in this planet. People can't really understand the stuff people with anxiety go through. Because there is no way to know what it's like until you've had it, and once you've had it there's no way to really shake it and it lives with you forever. If I could wish for one thing in the world it would be ...more

I have had anxiety my entire life. Since I was a kid. We first thought I was just shy but when I started getting panic attacks we looked into it. It's like that feeling when you fall backwards on a chair, that quick 3 second feeling you get, your heart races, you can't breathe, you break out in a sweat, you feel like you're drowning-except it obviously much longer. Talking to people is a chore, leaving the house is a chore, going shopping doing normal things and having people tell you to 'just get up' is awful. Finding support can be hard and anxiety in general is terrible. You never know when its coming, it just comes and it leads to things like depression, OCD and insomnia. I spend nights crying and stressing, having panic attacks all alone in my room. Crying at school and avoiding everything. I can't have fun when I go places because I fear people will judge me.

I've had this since birth, but I only found out about 6 months ago. When I look back, I now believe that I have had this since birth. I thought it was normal to have felt the feelings that I did, but most people would always outdo me in everything the slightest bit nerve-wracking. I am 14 now, and in my case, it is not really that bad, considering what I have heard from other people. I have a moderate-severe level and I find that to be terrible. I can't even imagine the people who have this but on a much more severe level. Before, I thought that I was just more careful, but even the most careful of people would outdo me. It takes literally 30 minutes to jump off of an 8-foot ledge. It literally took 30 minutes to convince me to do that. Plus, I have a phobia of heights, so yeah. I can't go higher than 20 feet without getting nervous. Like one person before me said, NO ONE DESERVES THIS! - Gynidz

Anxiety controls your body it doesn't let you live life to the fullest
It has stopped me from being happy from doing anything actually
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I can't think properly
Ugh I can't do anything
And then depression just hits you when you feel all those things

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The Contenders

11 Clinical Depression

I have a friend who has this, and the only reason people aren't writing a comment on Clinical depression is probably because they haven't had it... and that's why there aren't many comments...

It's a horrible illness I've had it most of my life it can bring you to the brink of suicide

No one comments because they know nothing matters

You're life no longer has any moments of joy or happiness, moments considered happy by others pass without recognition to you and all you really want to do is sleep. Life is boredom and tiredness
I'm not selfish enough to commit suicide but everyday I wish the end of the world would come and take me out of this living nightmare.

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12 Misophonia

I've had this ever since I was 5, and it has tormented my life to the fullest. I stopped eating with my parents, I couldn't even be in the same room as them without earplugs. I go everywhere with earplugs, and as for school I have my own classroom that I spend 80% of the time in except for when I'm getting instructions from teachers. People annoy me so much, with so many sounds and even more sounds that come every year. At the age 15 I obtained a repetitive tick, whenever someone makes a sound I have to make it right after so It doesn't torment my mind that much. Eventually though students catch on and start making the sounds on purpose because they find it funny. With that being said I sill can't tell many people, afraid that they would call me a drama queen or it's not a real disorder. Or how they compare to them not liking a few sounds to what I have, which is not comparable. When these sounds get repetitive this huge urge to kill the person is unbearable, I feel disgusted with ...more

I have Misophonia along with a little Autism (further down the list). Let me just say it's tough and it's a huge burden. I have been to SEVERAL behavioral hospitals before my mom could figure out what was wrong with me, even after I've been to lots of them. My sadistic father always tormented me about it. Once someone finds out you have Misophonia, they'll start making noises on purpose. I scare myself and I'm always isolated from everyone and everything. Yes, people have been quite retarded about the fact I can't tolerate noises. Every time someone made a noise or did something (purpose AND accident) I physically attacked them. It's not like a really had control over myself, you wouldn't believe the anger and emotion that just erupts and explodes. There's always screaming. There are so many holes in my walls. All I hear from people are noises that bring out my monster. Just because you haven't heard of it, DOES NOT mean I don't have Misophonia.

MISOPHONIA: When everything is ...more

I've had a problem with this condition my entire life. When I was little, I would have panic attacks if my parents took me to a loud place. One time, when I was four, during a firework show, I ran away. Now I avoid movie theaters and hate going to restaurants because the sound is unbearable. I don't like sitting with friends because I start to get overwhelmed. I'll start having angry outbursts when I hear someone smacking or breathing too loudly, and I get the impulse to strangle them. This disorder is both annoying and depressing.

When I was 4, I was diagnosed with Misophonia. I was triggered by creepy noises and high pitched noises like the cow noise, thunder, people sounding out letters, etc. I overcame these noises when I turned 14. The sound that triggers me the most is Ric Flair's Wo! I would cry, scream, rage, destroy stuff, and cuss. I hate this wrestler because of him saying Woo. Up to this day as a 16 year old guy, I still hate the way he says woo.

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13 Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

I can't believe this isn't up higher. The worst thing about PTSD is that it is a never ending disorder. All day I swivel my head back and forth and always assume the worst things are going to happen to everyone around me. It makes it impossible to get close to people, because the closer I get the more fearful I become I will lose them. You never know when your trigger will appear and when it does it can throw you out of your life for days at a time. I'm scared to get out of bed everyday because I'm afraid of the world. I have insomnia that is linked to PTSD and all I can do all night is think of all the different scenarios in which the people I love will die. I'm always exhausted but I still do things to be safe. I check everyone at all times to make sure everyone is safe, and it kills me when my friends do even little things like ride without a seatbelt on. The flashbacks can be debilitating and come with no warning. During a test, a conversation with a friend, at work talking to ...more

This disorder is crazy! I was into psychology until I saw this! I have PSD... I am 12 years old and I am so afraid of my loved ones to die... I'm afraid to lose them... This is just plain hell! I sleep every night thinking about my loved ones if they die and I will cry... its almost everyday! This is one of my worst experience! I feel like losing my mom because she always gets mad at me for small reasons I just cannot handle but cry thinking what if she leaves me? What if she loves him more than me? (I have no dad but my mom has a boyfriend) I love my family and friends but I don't feel it anymore... I can't feel anything but sadness and anger inside... and yes I laugh but only in the outside. Life is meaningless with these.

My mom has it. Its horrible its like a mix of every other mental illness all in one

Simple problem to get rid of. Ask your doctor or medical practitioner for a prescription for medicinal cannabis.

There is a special component/Chemical compound Called Cannabinoids And another one called cannabidiol and a lot more beneficial chemical compounds in cannabis which help and manage ranges of symptoms illnesses, disorders you name it. Go study it. I knew someone who had PTSD Cured it with this organic natural medicine which I recommend. Though I DO NOT CONDONE Recreational Drug use. what so ever I do recommend Medical use of various substances which I know help people. So yeah.! - JoshuaFiorio

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14 Sleep Paralysis

During REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep, which is when we have dreams, the brain released a chemical that freezes your body. (I don't remember why.) Sleep paralysis occurs when an individual is half awake during REM sleep. Since you cannot move or speak, you are temporarily paralyzed. Since we experience dreams during REM sleep, the individual has visions. Reports say that victims say that they hear voices, or see paranormal creatures. Such as demons. Some also report having the feeling of flying, or being dragged out of bed. And noises such as hissing, zapping, or humming can also be experienced. Some cases of sleep paralysis are sleep deprivation, phycological stress, or abnormal sleeping cycles. - LordDovahkiin

Sleep paralysis is scary. I remember having it once before. I woke up at like four in the morning, when I realized that I couldn't move. I thought it would ware away after a few seconds but it didn't. I started hearing really loud whispers then I started to see things. It was like a shadow was hiding behind one of the walls and was just staring at me. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. I couldn't even talk. In that moment I felt like I was gonna die. But the worst feeling was that I was really tired but I couldn't fall asleep because I thought that if I slept I would die. Sleep paralysis is one of the most scary experiences I had ever experienced.

This isn't a mental illness. It can happen to anyone. - LordDovahkiin

You feel numb all over, or you can't move. I sometimes feel numb, but once I woke up to find my hand like a piece of rubber. It couldn't feel my other hand, and I couldn't move it. - BoltMarksman

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15 Eating Disorders

Eating disorders are basically replacing difficult emotions(which are held in the core the way) with something tangible- food. Someone with ED may say they are full, but they are really full of emotion, and eating creates stimulation of the vagus nerve which connects the brain to the stomach, thus feeling painful emotion and then restricting to feel better. I've had anorexia for 3 years and it has been the hardest thing to live through. It feels like being possessed by a monster that tells you not to eat, that you are fat, unloved, worthless, etc. It's avoiding people, parties, and holidays because you know there will be food and you're TERRIFIED of it. Its not being able to sit in hard chairs or wear revealing clothes due to such low body fat. Eating disorders are similar to addiction in the way the brain processes, but it is much more difficult to live with. First off, the high I get from losing weight is so much better than any I've gotten with drugs, which makes it harder to give ...more

Eating disorders slowly kill you. Everyday is a struggle. Stepping on the scaled multiple times a day and crying at your reflection in the mirror becomes at daily routine. Eating disorders are such a painful experience and are very difficult to recover from. When you have an eating disorder it is very difficult to talk about. I had been thinking about telling a friend about my eating disorder for a long time because it was so hard to keep it all to myself and I felt so alone. I remember one night my friend slept over and we were having a deep conversation in the middle of the night. We were drunk and she asked me what one thing that no one knew about me that I keep secret. Immediately my eating disorder popper in my head but I hesitated. I told her I didn't have one and she said she didn't believe me. I will never forget that feeling of how hard it was to talk about my bulimia out loud. In some cases even drugs can't help. One time I remember I was really high and I got the munchies. ...more

They are always that silent killer. There's always early signs, that are often thrown off as 'just growing up, losing baby fat, trying to get healthy' but until it's physically present- it's so easy to ignore and hide. Often you are oblivious to ever having it, until it's consumed you completely. I didn't realize there was anything actually wrong with me at all, I didn't even really know what it was. My parents waited until I was 8 stone and started asking me if I was bulimic. And I had no idea what bulimia was, I just thought the only type of eating disorder was one where you starved or threw up. And I hadn't given any of them any thought, I'd never really seen anyone with one-besides celebrities. Maybe because I thought they didn't effect me. Well if everyone had that attitude we'd be living in ignorance, I realise now. Besides all these mental disorders, ignorance is the biggest killer.

This definitely needs to be higher up. I had anorexia when I was only 11. I hate the fact that I hated my body so much, even though there was nothing wrong. I was convinced I was too fat while people were concerned with my non-existent weight. It's been almost 3 years since then, and I still find it hard to know when I am truly hungry or not. I actually wasn't obsessed with exercise, because I was too depressed to get out of bed.
The worst part is that I used my anorexia in an awful way. When I decided I wanted to commit suicide, I attempted it through way of starving myself, making my anorexia worse. I went through all of this alone, and to this day, few people know about this experience. Not even my own parents.

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16 Psychotic Depression

Mine was induced by high levels of stress because of a lot of emotionally heavy events in a short time period. I had to juggle my emotions with putting on a brave face for my friend who was battling suicide. I kept having these moments where everything would grey out and I'd see my friend dead in front of me.

I had this last year I was so down that I couldn't even get away from it I'm my sleep I would hear voice telling to smash my head on something or I would see scarey thing that where not there.
But the worst of it is it took them 5 month to put me in hospital and tell what was going on I thought I could have a brain tremors because no one would help me because it was a busy year and no share befs

Why isn't this higher? It's basically Schizophrenia and Depression put together, but worse. - JakePlaid

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17 Dissociative Identity Disorder

I have anxiety that later was followed by DID. Probably one of the most difficult disorders to explain, it's like nothing is real, you're just in a dream. It's difficult to think straight and it's horrifying. I always have panic attacks while experiencing this because I don't feel in control, I feel like I'll mess something up because I have no idea what's happening but at the same time I know everything that is happening and I can't do anything about it. This disorder gives me grief because I am a dancer and whenever I am performing this happens and it's horrible because my mind just blanks yet my body keeps moving. The only perfect description I can think of, it's like a zone out, or you're just watching yourself from a screen. I get this on and off thr. oughout the day and then can't even remember what "normal mode" feels like. Whenever this is happening it sucks because I don't feel like I'm actually experiencing the things I am. I hope my description helped your understandings.

I personally have many of these problems and feel as if my life is a dream. It all feels staged and fake.

This is like if you have no personnality, you just have you, the robot who does whats it's socially right to do, and the other, the alter-ego, who is psychadelic and totally empty, like a black hole in your head, no conscience no thougths, just an intuitive fear that paralyzes you. So all your memories or looks like someone else's or horror, and you feel bad because all the people your supposed to love, you can't feel anything for them, it's not you, and you don't even have the impression they're real, all is just a dream, but you can't wake up, never ever. This should definitely be number one.

This explains my whole entire life

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18 Generalised Anxiety Disorder

I was diagnosed with this when I was ten or eleven. It caused me to become physically sick and develop several phobias, many of which I'm still dealing with today. I think my first and worst fear was vomit, which I developed somewhere from age six to eight. I also become physically sick or face intense fear when faced with corners I have to turn (spooked easily because of ADHD, had it all my life), sexual intercourse (feels like committing an unpardonable sin, caused by upbringing, developed around age 12 when I became sexually active), elevators (thanks to the Rockefeller building, developed at age 15), or anything with a steep uphill climb. When I was younger, I had a fear of being left alone, so much to where I would sleep under my youngest sister's bed without her knowledge so I could actually drift off. I think I was desensitized to that by having to be alone for long periods of time. I am currently 19 and attending college as a junior this year. I have my own psychiatrist now, ...more

I have Gad, it's like living a prison. I worry about everything and I can't control them. When I'm at school I don't do anything because I'm so afraid of failing it or doing it wrong, when my mom is late from work I start worrying she got into a car accident, I constantly watch my family members pretty much every single minute I have them just so I make sure they don't die. I lost a lot of friends because of this, they refer me as a "whiny 8 year old" because of my mental illness, very hard to live with. Sometimes I start thinking I don't even deserve a place on earth

If your friends call you a "whiny 8 year old" because of something you can't really control, then they are probably crappy friends.

I live with anxiety everyday, no medication works. Unlike other mental illnesses you can use medication and it might actually do something.
I have never worked, I don't go out, I'm 20 and I've been like this for years. School was a nightmare. Everything is a nightmare. I can't eat normally, I have insomnia because of it, it constantly feels like I'm dying.
I think everyone hates me because I can't do things, no one talks to you, or even cares about how you feel because it's not a "real illnesses".
My doctor is useless and refuses to help.
Sleeping tablets don't work! I've tried so many and they just ware of after a couple days.

Listening to music might help. It has GREATLY decreased my anxiety without any MEDS. It might not work for you though, and it's just a suggestion. - MusicalPony

I have social anxiety disorder. I spend most of my time alone and fear walking in public and meeting people. People tell me I walk fast when they see me in public and that I look like I am in fear. I start sweating whenever I interact.it has given me an eating disorder. it has ruined my life and I cannot do anything about it. I can only imagine what it feels like to be a normal person

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19 Psychosis

This should be at the top with its relative, Schizophrenia. This disease is known to less, but has the same and sometimes worse effects as Schizophrenia. When people go through Psychosis, they can have trouble finding what is the real world and what is not. Some people with this disease have even felt safer when dreaming or asleep because the constant noise and hallucinations are not there when they are. The noise can be something as minimal as a small periodic buzzing, to a gruesome voice telling you to kill yourself. Psychosis should not be underestimated and can cause ¨insanity¨. A person with Psychosis can keep it hidden for years before accepting it or telling someone. And even if they want to tell someone, they may not be able to tell who to trust or open up to.

I apparently have this disorder. Perhaps on a good day, such as today, I will agree with you. Yes, I have psychosis. But when everyone (the "hallucinations") are talking to me it's hard to ignore them and act normally; when they're poking me in class and telling me that the teacher is going to kill us all or that I'll fail my classes, obviously it's distressing. I've had these "symptoms" since I was about 7, now I'm 15. The disorder can hurt, physically and mentally, it can be cunning and confusing and down right evil. I often cannot even tell what I made up and what's real, it's the same to me; but nobody can see it, my pain isn't even real.

I was Diagnosed with Brief Psychotic Disorder at the age of 16 and I've had to live with relapsing episodes for years. Schizophrenia may be bad but any psychotic disorder is just as bad if not worse at times.

This disorder should be higher up the list it is truly evil. every day is a constant battle In your head as you use all your energy just to focus on what is real and what is not. your sanity literally rips itself into pieces.

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20 Depersonalization Disorder

This is by far the worst disorder I have experienced. I have severe anxiety and depression. One time at school I was doing nothing and was just daydreaming about the things I want to achieve in life. Instead of me fulfilling it at real life, I imagine having it in my mind. So I have this world that I created in my mind, which is very scary. This made me view my perception of reality in a very different way. I felt I was not in my body, I felt my body was distorted and wasn't 'right'. I was emotionally detached when talking to my family or friends, I lost lots of friends. Everything seemed 2 dimensional and blurry, my whole body gets numb. This just increased my anxiety more. I even have this 'out-of-body' experiences and I feel that I'm watching myself above and yeah... It's very scary. I have these episodes for like aost everyday and it's really distressing and it affects my relationship with my friends. Made me even feel more depressed because I thought I was 'crazy'. For me, this ...more

I have Anxiety, Autism, and Bipolar disorder but I find this horrifying. The best way I could describe it is living dead. Everyone with it experiences It differently but I have it to the point where it never gets better. It feels like I died a long time ago or I'm trapped in a dream. I lost all motivation and became apathetic. It cuts off my focus and concentration. It made me very suicidal and emotionless. I hurt the people close to me by not caring about them and ignoring them. It really sucks like every mental illness but I feel it's very hard to relate to if you don't have it.

I experience this 24/7 and it is the worst. Basically your life doesn't feel real. Everything around you is blurry and the colors are muted. I've had times in which I freaked out at random times bright lights makes this condition worse for me. My family doesn't understand what I have and they thought I was crazy, so I feel alone most of the time. The same thing happened to most of my friends. It changed my personality and I have lost so many of these "friends". In this madness, I found myself at home with Batman comics, so now I live in this world to try and get away from this agonaizing feeling of being alone with this disorder.

I have a severe DP and it¬'s the most disturbing, most terrifying, hellish experience you can imagine. You don¬'t wish your worst enemy to have this condition.
It can bring you to a point where you can¬'t function in life at all. It destroyed my whole life.
This mental disorder should be in the Top 5.Easily.

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