Worst Mental Illnesses

The Top Ten

1 Schizophrenia

There are voices and thoughts. They won't stop coming inside your head, no matter how hard you try. When I say quiet, they will talk again. My mom and other people repeatedly calling my name is the scariest. Even when you're silent, it's so noisy in your head like it's just going to explode. Then there goes shadow people peeping in the windows. I always had to close the windows and bring the curtains down so that they won't see me. I would avoid looking at the mirror sometimes because people coming from the other world might see me. I can't remember things properly. Like, what dress did I wear yesterday or earlier. I even experienced one time, when someone suddenly asked my name, I totally forgot. I paused to myself and had to look at the ID I was wearing to remember. Sometimes, I forget my birthday and age. I would prefer not to go outside much because I worry that intruders would go inside the house. I can't sleep because I can hear sounds that someone's trying to break down our ...more

I'm an extreme paranoid schizophrenic and I alsi have depressive personality disorders and DID (disociative identity disorder) Having a long range of mental illnesses I still feel my schizophrenia affects me most because I get so paranoid at people I lose relationships with people I really care about and it seems I have a dullness of happiness, and sympathy for certain things, not to mention my hallucinations of demons haunting me and one making home inside my head, voices telling me to do things that are morally wrong to. Most people but I. Feel it isn't wrong, my. Beliefs are totally distorted but right I feel death is the only fairness in life I feel the only way for. People to not be in pain is to die, countless suicide attempts and loads of guilt. This is why I believe schizophrenia is by far the worst mental illness

I am a schizophrenic... It's the worst thing that has happened to me so far but also the best thing. Losing the sense of reality has made me appreciate what other people take for granted. Never piety a person with a mental illness, physical illness or any negative aspect they are born with as a human being, pity the ones who embrace negativity through their lifetime and die without humanity.

I do not think there is a more debilitating mental illness than schizophrenia.

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2 Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

People have no idea... it's not just washing your hands 6 times a day.. I had much things I had to do; Everything I did, I had to do it 2 times and then again but in the opposite direction, I was not allowed to breathe when I looked at people or when they were in my sight, when I did look at them I had to breath in so much that I passed out, People couldn't touch me or things in my room (even the floor) and when they did I had to get their bacteria off of it and then sort of slap it of and then slap it off of my hands again and everything in my room was not allowed to change, I had to pick up everything from the street... leafs, plastic, stones and even food. I couldn't throw it away too. It drove me CRAZY. I tried to commit suicide almost every week.. I was young so I didn't know how but I tried to hit my artery with a screw.. it hurt so much but it didn't work, I cut myself, I was in therapy, I tried so hard.. to live happy.. but this gets you too depressed.. life gets so hard.. I ...more

I've had OCD since I was ten, or that when I was diagnosed with it at least. And it sucks. I don;t have the kind where it germs, germs, germs, germs, germs, I have the kind where everything has to be perfectly symmetric and even. For awhile I couldn't sit still because more pressure would be on my butt than the top of my thighs, or sleep because no matter which position I was in there would be more pressure on one side than another. I started cutting not long after that, and even that had to be symmetrical. When I broke my arm in sixth grade my parents had to watch me so I would;t break my other one. If I got in a situation where I couldn't even up I would have to physically harm myself; once I gave myself a concussion. I also couldn't write for the longest time because I'd write it with my left hand, then erase with my left hand then write with my right hand and erase with my right hand and it took me so long to correct the pattern so it would feel right, right, right, right, right, ...more

I live with impulsive thoughts and actions. My thoughts are violent, disturbing. I'm a gentle and kind individual who will never harm anyone or any animal. So my illness targets what I love most and shows up in my head in a way that breaks my heart and makes me sick to my stomach. Images of killing my beloved pets, raping people, being a cannibal or a necrophiliac. Even writing this down is giving me anxiety. When the thoughts come, I have to reverse them in my mind or by compulsing my body (re closing the door, walk over a floor tile, even things like spitting food out in my hand and eating it back.) And I have to think a good thought (I am a protector, I will never so such a thing) in order to be calm again. If I forget what action I did or what I was thinking before I had my impulsive thought, I get severe panic attacks and I think that these terrible things will come true. But people have to understand. I WILL NEVER DO SUCH THINGS. I wouldn't even think about it. They just come by ...more

People don’t understand the difference between being a clean-freak and having OCD. Go read a book, people! - Miauzer

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3 Bipolar Disorder

I'm not ashamed to be Bipolar nor should I be this illness has tormented everyday of my teen life and into adulthood yet it has also taught me beautiful things mainly to cherish those while you have them because you won't have them forever because once they realize there is more to your personality then extreme happiness mainly what I have learned from being Bipolar is that there is no such thing as unconditional love form anyone and that egos are fragile I also have PTSD I regularly debate killing myself but when I am happy it's the most wonderful feeling ever imagine twenty percent of the time you are on ecstasy ad eighty percent of the time you can barely remember simple facts because your emotions are so down that's all that you can think about it's like every mental illness turned into one and it is completely random when you feel what no control of your emotions but many people with who have come to terms with Bipolar disorder are the sweetest people I have ever met because ...more

I have Bipolar with psychosis and severe anxiety and I admit most of my time with this diagnosis I was embarrassed about it but not because of Bipolar itself, because people think it just means you're moody. COULDN'T BE MORE WRONG. Bipolar has the highest suicide rate above all other mental illnesses by a lot including borderline, depression and Schizophrenia. Bipolar feels like your brain is the rope in a Tug-Of-War match between Extreme mania and crippling depression. My first psychotic episode I saw demons and was convinced they were trying to kill me. It screwed up so much I had going for me, good grades, friends, and happiness. I spent all my hard earned money on useless junk, did weird things things that made me lose friends, I had violent urges (i didn't act on), hearing voices, not sleeping for days, seeing demons and alternative realities. My family "didn't believe" in mental illness and disowned me. I was homeless and bipolar I tried to kill myself then. Luckily I got help ...more

Am a male (37 years) and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder since I was 28. It's been 9 years I am taking medication and it was getting worse. I did many research on the internet for a long time and I think I found the permanent cure. It is simply meditation! yesss I sit quietly (eyes closed with a straight spine and focusing on my breath) for 30 minutes twice daily. I simply put my headphones on and listen to relaxing meditative music which you can find on YouTube (i listen to Paul Collier's music and found it very relaxing! ).

Now after 11 months of doing it I reduced my medication by 50 percent! I am planning to stop my medication after 7 months (which means after 18 months of meditation).

Believe me meditation can reverse any mental illness it is like a training for the mind! With meditation I am now finally in the driver seat of my own mind and it's amazing! I wasn't like that when I was taking 100 percent of my medication dose (now am on 50 percent). So just sit ...more

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4 Borderline Personality Disorder

BPD is such a terrible, terrible thing. I am horrified at myself for the way I act toward myself and the way I treat others. I had a lot of cases in my childhood of being left behind by my parents and abandoned by my friends and they were some of my worst memories. It's such a strange disorder because I can't trust myself or anyone else. It's almost like my entire persona changes day by day or week by week. I have such powerful and explosive emotions that I slip into erratic, psychotic, and sometimes catatonic states. In some extreme cases, I've even dissociated and nearly got myself killed. All I want is to be loved and understood, but that's impossible when you can't love or understand yourself. I subconsciously pick friends that are emotionally fragile so I can get in their heads more easily and keep them close, then my impulsiveness can cause me to abuse them. I always present myself to be kind, talented, understanding, and respectable, so people are drawn to me, but I fear that ...more

I was Diagnosed with Bpd at age 16, right when it had become its worse. After I was diagnosed things made much more since, why I always felt alone, empty. It's a chronic pain. Not knowing who you are, how to act around people, what to say. It's like you wanna be loved so badly, so deeply, but one comes to close you blame them for being cruel to you and then the other second you want them around. No one knows how to treat you, their walking eggshells around. You view yourself as nothing, and other days you view yourself as something bigger then others. It's a daily second guessing. A push and pull game you play without realizing. Pain you have no control over and hopelessness that you will ever find love or if anyones ever going to stick around or if anyone is ever going to understand. You are in constant fear of abandonment. Your coping skills are not so great, a personal story of mine I began self harm at a very young age I was 9. My life was full of neglect from parents and family. ...more

I am not diagnisticated, but yes, I am pretty sure I have Borderline. And it's really horrible. I talk and after that I regret all the things that was said. I hate myself, but I'm still alive because I love my family too much. Only my best friend, with whom I have strange relationship because of my impulsivity, knows about it, but I regret that I told her. I don't think I deserve to be happy because of my thoughts and actions. The only thing I want to do is to become numb, in this case I won't hurt people and will be more happy. But I don't, I can't do this. I want to talk, but I know I will regret everything. I want to become friends with someone, but I know they will hate me, like my best friend sometimes hates me and I hate, sometimes, almost every person. I want and don't want to become more sociable at the same time. Sometimes I cut myself because I want to punish me. I just want to cry, but if somebody will see me, I will regret this, like I regretted it in the past. I look ...more - Kamyru

BPD is constant paranoia that nothing around you is real, because you have no real sense of who you are. All you can do is scream and obsess and self-medicate the emptiness with unhealthy codependent relationships and friendships, people who love you but you convince yourself they're going to leave you so you treat them poorly, which actually makes them leave. It's like a constant flow of mood swings and self-fulfilling prophecies. You creat scenarios in which you're the bad person who needs to be forgiven and loved no matter how abusive you are. It's so lonely and it's the hardest of my many issues I've had to deal with

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5 Depression

Depression is an overwhelming nothingness and apathy that envelops the victim and forces rapid deterioration from the inside out. Depression is similar to the process of termites consuming the core of a healthy tree, so that everything appears natural and beautiful on the outside, yet the center has already been hollowed by the deadly destruction. Suicide is when that tree collapses because of a lack of people who cared enough to support the degenerated tree. Depression is characterized by a pain so severe, that even through the prison of rational thought, an individual would commit suicide because nothing, not even the grief experienced by the person's loved ones, could possibly compare to the ever increasing agony. Depression is the knowledge that no matter how many medications are forced down one's throat, how many seemingly useless years of therapy the individual must endure, the plague will never cease to haunt and torture and massacre. Depression is not weak. Depression is not ...more

Depression always finds a way to make even the best situation seem irrelevant and all bad situations seem like the worst thing in the world. All you want to do is lie in bed feeling utterly miserable. Eventually you feel so fed up with yourself and your life you try to end it.

I have a type of autism spectrum disorder known as Asperger's Syndrome and this makes it impossible for me to socialise or even feel normal. I also had suspected paranoia which pushed away every relationship I ever had. As a result, I spend recess just feeling magnificent lonely and miserable, watching other people enjoy themselves. The misery just stuck with me after a while no matter where I was or whether I was lonely or not and I then became majorly depressed.

People rarely asked if I was okay and I would just try to smile and say I was fine even though my heart was broken, unable to be fixed. People then just assumed I was just strange and liked to be alone which is untrue. They shunned me and ...more

I'm 17, I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety since I was 14. Now I know I'm young and many people will think that this age is the prime of your life's with nothing to worry about, no jobs no money concerns everythings fine but my depression has destroyed me. It has reared apart my life and made everything harder to cope with, I'm slowly dying on the inside but no one can tell because my physical appearance is still mutual. I feel as if day by day a part of me stays behind and dies and that one day I'll take my life without even thinking of my loved ones, the hardest part is people not understanding, thinking I'm just normal like everyone else but they don't get the pain and the struggle of going to sleep at night and hoping that you don't wake up in the morning, walking downstairs and staring at a mirror until you think you look happy or sane enough to state your own mother in the eyes and say "good morning, how are you" without spitting out the fact that you feel as if you ...more

I have it and I'm 11 I hate it I fell like suside a lot and its tarible I ues to be a happy up beat lil girl now I'm a sad depressed girl

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6 Antisocial Personality Disorder

I have this and I feel nothing for anyone I once pulled a knife on someone they were so scared on the verge of tears all I did was smile it was I still don't regret it but others would say the worst part is that I need to see people die to feel normal so I watch lots of gore and when I watch it I feel so relieved in real life I would never admit to having this but
here I feel fine talking about also at school I hate the other kids so much I feel like stabbing them or ephxyating them I want to kill them so so badly but I restrain myself for my only fear is being locked away I have no remorse when people die I fake emotions to look normal otherwise when my so called friends try to tell me jokes I don't laugh or smile I really only pay attention to one person and it's this girl I would murder her boyfriend to be with her I'm seriously considering it he makes me so angry ugh he's worthless just like everyone else well everyone except her she is the only valuable thing to me but ...more

I think this disorder should be #1. And it has nothing to do with if the person can get to work on time or keep a steady job. It has to do with its consistent "manipulative" nature due to the inability to feel empathy for others. This disorder was formerly called "psychopath," meaning psychologically damaged. I have severe OCD and am on the bipolar spectrum, and during one of my manic episodes, I met an antisocial personality disorder sufferer. I thought he was bipolar at first, but he quickly picked up what I liked, and emulated it perfectly. I smoked pot last night while I was hanging out with him (he did not smoke) and I started recognizing that he does not meet the "criteria" for bipolar disorder. His eyes were what gave away his disorder, they were empty when he was not trying to impress me.

An ASPD person can be in a long-term relationship with someone and have children with that person and then completely destroy all there lives on a whim (or many, continuous whims). They can appear nice enough for long periods of time, as long as their companion is on their internal list of people they find useful. As soon as that changes or they get bored enough to want a thrill, they reveal their inner monster and can start having sex with numerous strangers they find online and poisoning their long-time companion and endangering and lying to their children. All because it gives them a sick pleasure. And claiming it's their companion who is crazy the whole time. The heart of evil.

There is this woman my dad's age in my city who has this mental illness.
She has had such a very very sad and tragic life and I cannot believe she is still alive after everything she has been through and 53 years of alcohol abuse. Never had a happy moment in her life. I think once she dies the public will be relieved they gotten a much needed vacation from her constant offending and that there is no more pain and suffering for her. No one can help her get better.People think she is homeless because she has a horrible appearance but she's in a nice setting. She has abused substances since she was 6. I always assumed she had schizophrenia but when I saw in the newspaper she was an antisocial offender that's how I worked out what mental illness she has. She has so many convictions to her name and has been trespassed from most places

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7 SchizoAffective Disorder

Its like being tied to a chair and tortured your entire life. By midgets. Constant yammering auditory hallucinations who spend their time telling you they can steal your personality traits and characteristics. I walk around with a headache all day and sometimes have trouble concentrating. You can't really hear or see perfectly all the time either if the hallucinations become too powerful.

I noticed that a lot of the time the stuff they're saying has a significance to the present or obvious future. Usually they'll jay embarrass me but I can usually find a good reason for what they're talking about in the room. That's how I always know it's a delusion. My brain seems to know what going on, but for some reason it has to talk constantly.

If I get nervous or feel the pressure of anxiety my brain picks extreme topics to hallucinate about like terrorism or violence, or sometimes character defects. I can't always feel everything with my body like walking or moving. And sometimes ...more

This disorder doesn't have as many votes as the others because it doesn't receive as much attention in the news or media. I actually have bipolar 1, which has been terrible for me. I've spent five months of my life psychotic, been involuntarily committed three times due to severe mania, and have had years of depression. I've lost nearly everything I've valued in life due to this illness. I could vote for my illness, and also for scizophrenia, as my grandma had that disorder and I can see how it devastated her life, but schizoaffective disorder is a combination of the two. I have periods of normalcy between my manias and depressions, and my grandma didn't have to deal with the mood swings. I only have psychosis when I'm manic, but those suffering from schizoaffective disorder can have psychosis even when they are not manic or depressed. It's not as well known as the others, but I imagine schizoaffective disorder is the worst.

It's been a few months since I was released from the hospital for my first major psychotic episode. I've been bipolar for almost ten years since my world changed with constant depersonalization at age 12. Nothing ever feels real, I barely feel any emotions except anxiety now when I start to think about what's left for my future. That's not entirely true actually, I sit on either end as manic (very confident and sometimes very aggressive, though that's more related to psychosis) and feeling like nothing matters (depressed). If it weren't for my parents I would probably be homeless without medication. For some people that's a reality which horrifies me. I feel like I've experienced almost every mental illness except personality disorders but this is my diagnosis. I have rare moments where I just feel normal, but the depersonalization never goes away. I would never wish this on anybody.

Totally whack diisease

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8 Multiple Personality Disorder

I have multiple personality disorder and I believe it should be#2 on this list I have 3 alternate personalities besides me and its hell having this disorder because one minuet your fine and your you then the next thing you know its been days or weeks that another personality has been out and you didn't even kniw it was happening. One of my alternates would cut my arms from my wrist half way down my arm both arms and my mom or husband would find me just laying and the bathroom now I can't even stand a paper cut so I know I couldn't do that to myself so it would be days or maybe the next day I would come back too and my arms would be wrapped up and hurting and burning so bad and I didn't know what was going on, that same alternate made me overdose and be and a coma for 11 days it just caused harm to me. My protective alternate Hannah she comes out when something is too hard or difficult for me or my mind too handle then she comes out to deal with the conflict and usually causes more ...more

It's now called Dissociative identity disorder. I personally believe it should be higher. All mental illnesses are bad but some of the illnesses ahead of this are side effects of this disorder. It's hell because you feel trapped inside, you can't trust anyone especially yourself. You could seriously hurt someone or yourself. I'm not sure the exact statistics but people with this disorder have one of the highest suicide numbers among mental illnesses.

This should be above where it is. It's like you constantly don't know what you're going to do next. It's hard to cope because you never know who you are or how much you hurt the people you love. No one understands. It's Living Hall.

I have heard of this, and it is horrible! You have multiple people inside of you, all struggling to break free and take over. You don't control what you do. I can sort of relate because I have BPD. You can't really trust yourself.

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9 Autism Spectrum Disorders

I have pdd nos which is an autism spectrum disorder and was diagnosed when I was 3 1/2 and now I am 14 People don't notice it in me because I don't have echolalia and I don't have to go to any special needs classes. I have a really hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and even on paper. As I am writing this I don't really even know what to write. When I get super mad and feel the need to shout something, I don't know what to say. I also have very hard time understanding emotions. I don't know why someone would rather be happy than sad. To me, their kinda just the same. I get both emotions obviously, but I can't really understand them. I have a lack of empathy which is something people get confused with sympathy. Sympathy is feeling for someone while empathy is feeling with someone. For example, sympathy is feeling bad for someone when they are having a bad day while empathy is feeling good because you made someone happy. When I do good things to others I don't feel happy with ...more

I have pdd nos which is an autism specturm disorder and was diagnosed when I was 3 1/2 and now I am 14. People don't notice it in me because I don't have echolalia and I don't have to go to any special needs classes. I have a really hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and even on paper. As I am writing this I don't really even know what to write. When I get super mad and feel the need to shout something, I don't know what to say. I also have very hard time understanding emotions. I don't know why someone would rather be happy than sad. To me, their kinda just the same. I get both emotions obviously, but I can't really understand them. I have a lack of empathy which is something people get confused with sympathy. Sympathy is feeling for someone while empathy is feeling with someone. For example, sympathy is feeling bad for someone when they are having a bad day while empathy is feeling good because you made someone happy. When I do good things to others I don't feel happy with ...more

I have autism. If you don't, just imagine this. You are in a world, where when things change, you can't change. And when it come to just basic communication, it is horrible. It's hard to make friends because you don't know what to say, and it's almost impossible to get a boy/girlfriend because you just freeze when you try to say something. I only have a medium-light autism, which isn't the worst thing in the world, but someone in my class has a very heavy version, and can barely talk, and has stayed back a lot of years. If you are looking at the heavy side of autism, it should be at least number 3, and even the medium light version I have is terrible. I do have friends, but they came very slowly, and I have never had a girlfriend and probably won't for a couple more years. Although it has all of these bad effects, there are also some good ones. You can remember things much better, but it's not always the things you want to remember. The worst part about autism is that people think ...more

I have this, and it’s hard. People don’t seem to understand the difference between being retarded and having an autism spectrum disorder. - Miauzer

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10 Anxiety Disorders

Basically imagine that feeling you have when your about to fall out of a chair but you don't quite. That's what it's like to have a panic attack but for much much longer. And if you have anxiety you can have quite a few of those a week. These disorders can drive you crazy. I was diagnosed with it when I was 6 and I wouldn't eat, drink, sleep, or go anywhere just because of the fear of the unknown. I almost had to get fed with IVs because I wouldn't eat and it was so horrible! No matter what I ever get this will always be the worst because I can't get it to go away. I'm 11 now and it's gotten a little better, I eat now, but still. The stuff that lives in my brain is worse than any creature in this planet. People can't really understand the stuff people with anxiety go through. Because there is no way to know what it's like until you've had it, and once you've had it there's no way to really shake it and it lives with you forever. If I could wish for one thing in the world it would be ...more

I have had anxiety my entire life. Since I was a kid. We first thought I was just shy but when I started getting panic attacks we looked into it. It's like that feeling when you fall backwards on a chair, that quick 3 second feeling you get, your heart races, you can't breathe, you break out in a sweat, you feel like you're drowning-except it obviously much longer. Talking to people is a chore, leaving the house is a chore, going shopping doing normal things and having people tell you to 'just get up' is awful. Finding support can be hard and anxiety in general is terrible. You never know when its coming, it just comes and it leads to things like depression, OCD and insomnia. I spend nights crying and stressing, having panic attacks all alone in my room. Crying at school and avoiding everything. I can't have fun when I go places because I fear people will judge me.

I've had this since birth, but I only found out about 6 months ago. When I look back, I now believe that I have had this since birth. I thought it was normal to have felt the feelings that I did, but most people would always outdo me in everything the slightest bit nerve-wracking. I am 14 now, and in my case, it is not really that bad, considering what I have heard from other people. I have a moderate-severe level and I find that to be terrible. I can't even imagine the people who have this but on a much more severe level. Before, I thought that I was just more careful, but even the most careful of people would outdo me. It takes literally 30 minutes to jump off of an 8-foot ledge. It literally took 30 minutes to convince me to do that. Plus, I have a phobia of heights, so yeah. I can't go higher than 20 feet without getting nervous. Like one person before me said, NO ONE DESERVES THIS! - Gynidz

Anxiety controls your body it doesn't let you live life to the fullest
It has stopped me from being happy from doing anything actually
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I can't think properly
Ugh I can't do anything
And then depression just hits you when you feel all those things

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The Contenders

11 Clinical Depression

I have a friend who has this, and the only reason people aren't writing a comment on Clinical depression is probably because they haven't had it... and that's why there aren't many comments...

It's a horrible illness I've had it most of my life it can bring you to the brink of suicide

No one comments because they know nothing matters

You're life no longer has any moments of joy or happiness, moments considered happy by others pass without recognition to you and all you really want to do is sleep. Life is boredom and tiredness
I'm not selfish enough to commit suicide but everyday I wish the end of the world would come and take me out of this living nightmare.

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12 Misophonia

I have Misophonia along with a little Autism (further down the list). Let me just say it's tough and it's a huge burden. I have been to SEVERAL behavioral hospitals before my mom could figure out what was wrong with me, even after I've been to lots of them. My sadistic father always tormented me about it. Once someone finds out you have Misophonia, they'll start making noises on purpose. I scare myself and I'm always isolated from everyone and everything. Yes, people have been quite retarded about the fact I can't tolerate noises. Every time someone made a noise or did something (purpose AND accident) I physically attacked them. It's not like a really had control over myself, you wouldn't believe the anger and emotion that just erupts and explodes. There's always screaming. There are so many holes in my walls. All I hear from people are noises that bring out my monster. Just because you haven't heard of it, DOES NOT mean I don't have Misophonia.

MISOPHONIA: When everything is ...more

I've had a problem with this condition my entire life. When I was little, I would have panic attacks if my parents took me to a loud place. One time, when I was four, during a firework show, I ran away. Now I avoid movie theaters and hate going to restaurants because the sound is unbearable. I don't like sitting with friends because I start to get overwhelmed. I'll start having angry outbursts when I hear someone smacking or breathing too loudly, and I get the impulse to strangle them. This disorder is both annoying and depressing.

I have had misophonia since I was 12 now and from a year of having it you learn a lot. I can't eat with my family at dinner time, I can't sit and share snacks with my friends at sleepovers. The amount of anger that immediately comes from deep inside me, I can't handle. I get told off for getting wound up by small sounds at the dinner table, I've been laughed at for crying in pain that it deeply upsets me to hear things like hat. And when I meet someone who understands I will be so happy because I have felt so alone for months and it's not helping.

I have this, it is the worst. My parents don't believe me and they think I'm doing it to be pretentious. I had it since I was 12 and now I'm 15 and it's only gotten worse. It's only an emotional reaction now but a physical one too, and having a dad that yawns loud, types loud, and chews with his mouth open to I can hear literately everything doesn't make it any easier.

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13 Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

I can't believe this isn't up higher. The worst thing about PTSD is that it is a never ending disorder. All day I swivel my head back and forth and always assume the worst things are going to happen to everyone around me. It makes it impossible to get close to people, because the closer I get the more fearful I become I will lose them. You never know when your trigger will appear and when it does it can throw you out of your life for days at a time. I'm scared to get out of bed everyday because I'm afraid of the world. I have insomnia that is linked to PTSD and all I can do all night is think of all the different scenarios in which the people I love will die. I'm always exhausted but I still do things to be safe. I check everyone at all times to make sure everyone is safe, and it kills me when my friends do even little things like ride without a seatbelt on. The flashbacks can be debilitating and come with no warning. During a test, a conversation with a friend, at work talking to ...more

This disorder is crazy! I was into psychology until I saw this! I have PSD... I am 12 years old and I am so afraid of my loved ones to die... I'm afraid to lose them... This is just plain hell! I sleep every night thinking about my loved ones if they die and I will cry... its almost everyday! This is one of my worst experience! I feel like losing my mom because she always gets mad at me for small reasons I just cannot handle but cry thinking what if she leaves me? What if she loves him more than me? (I have no dad but my mom has a boyfriend) I love my family and friends but I don't feel it anymore... I can't feel anything but sadness and anger inside... and yes I laugh but only in the outside. Life is meaningless with these.

My mom has it. Its horrible its like a mix of every other mental illness all in one

It's hell. It's like being trapped in a room with a silent, invisible tiger, never knowing when it will strike. It's never over. All of your worst memories stick with you. They haunt you. I've watched someone I love nearly killed by my own father. I've been a victim of rape, beatings, and what I can only describe as having been tortured. It's worse than that though. People only know about the flashbacks and panic attacks. But you also go to sleep screaming and wake up screaming. You also have an extremely difficult time forming any sort of a bond with people. You just can't trust them. I think people want to kill me, or that everyone just wants to ruin me. I am often depressed, and have contemplated suicide more times than I can count. I've had times where I just can't speak, let alone let out a scream despite the extreme fear and pain I'm in. I expect the worst, even when I'm fully aware of the statistical odds of the worst things happening. I can't trust that people are going to ...more

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14 Sleep Paralysis

During REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep, which is when we have dreams, the brain released a chemical that freezes your body. (I don't remember why.) Sleep paralysis occurs when an individual is half awake during REM sleep. Since you cannot move or speak, you are temporarily paralyzed. Since we experience dreams during REM sleep, the individual has visions. Reports say that victims say that they hear voices, or see paranormal creatures. Such as demons. Some also report having the feeling of flying, or being dragged out of bed. And noises such as hissing, zapping, or humming can also be experienced. Some cases of sleep paralysis are sleep deprivation, phycological stress, or abnormal sleeping cycles. - LordDovahkiin

Sleep paralysis is scary. I remember having it once before. I woke up at like four in the morning, when I realized that I couldn't move. I thought it would ware away after a few seconds but it didn't. I started hearing really loud whispers then I started to see things. It was like a shadow was hiding behind one of the walls and was just staring at me. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. I couldn't even talk. In that moment I felt like I was gonna die. But the worst feeling was that I was really tired but I couldn't fall asleep because I thought that if I slept I would die. Sleep paralysis is one of the most scary experiences I had ever experienced.

This isn't a mental illness. It can happen to anyone. - LordDovahkiin

You feel numb all over, or you can't move. I sometimes feel numb, but once I woke up to find my hand like a piece of rubber. It couldn't feel my other hand, and I couldn't move it. - BoltMarksman

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15 Eating Disorders

Eating disorders slowly kill you. Everyday is a struggle. Stepping on the scaled multiple times a day and crying at your reflection in the mirror becomes at daily routine. Eating disorders are such a painful experience and are very difficult to recover from. When you have an eating disorder it is very difficult to talk about. I had been thinking about telling a friend about my eating disorder for a long time because it was so hard to keep it all to myself and I felt so alone. I remember one night my friend slept over and we were having a deep conversation in the middle of the night. We were drunk and she asked me what one thing that no one knew about me that I keep secret. Immediately my eating disorder popper in my head but I hesitated. I told her I didn't have one and she said she didn't believe me. I will never forget that feeling of how hard it was to talk about my bulimia out loud. In some cases even drugs can't help. One time I remember I was really high and I got the munchies. ...more

They are always that silent killer. There's always early signs, that are often thrown off as 'just growing up, losing baby fat, trying to get healthy' but until it's physically present- it's so easy to ignore and hide. Often you are oblivious to ever having it, until it's consumed you completely. I didn't realize there was anything actually wrong with me at all, I didn't even really know what it was. My parents waited until I was 8 stone and started asking me if I was bulimic. And I had no idea what bulimia was, I just thought the only type of eating disorder was one where you starved or threw up. And I hadn't given any of them any thought, I'd never really seen anyone with one-besides celebrities. Maybe because I thought they didn't effect me. Well if everyone had that attitude we'd be living in ignorance, I realise now. Besides all these mental disorders, ignorance is the biggest killer.

Has no one here ever had an eating disorder. They are damned if you do and damned if you don't. Weight going up and you want to hurt every inch of your being. The torment never shuts up, it renders you physically incapable. Incapable of doing one of the most basic human survival instincts- eating. You hurt your family and your friends and you lose everything your mind cannot think of anything else. The thoughts never shut up. There is nostalgia for being at your 'sickest' failure for not doing well enough in destroying yourself. Being forced to eat is traumatising. Eating makes you want to die, not eating and being stuck in a pointless cycle of starvation and weight loss makes you want to die. Either way you're screwed. I have depression anxiety and anorexia. If I could get rid of one it would be the hell that is the eating disorder.

My entire life is lived through an eating disorder lens. My life is not my own to live, I share it with the monster that controls every thought and movement.

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16 Psychotic Depression

Mine was induced by high levels of stress because of a lot of emotionally heavy events in a short time period. I had to juggle my emotions with putting on a brave face for my friend who was battling suicide. I kept having these moments where everything would grey out and I'd see my friend dead in front of me.

I had this last year I was so down that I couldn't even get away from it I'm my sleep I would hear voice telling to smash my head on something or I would see scarey thing that where not there.
But the worst of it is it took them 5 month to put me in hospital and tell what was going on I thought I could have a brain tremors because no one would help me because it was a busy year and no share befs

Why isn't this higher? It's basically Schizophrenia and Depression put together, but worse. - JakePlaid

Sthere are signa but I don't know...

17 Dissociative Identity Disorder

I personally have many of these problems and feel as if my life is a dream. It all feels staged and fake.

This is like if you have no personnality, you just have you, the robot who does whats it's socially right to do, and the other, the alter-ego, who is psychadelic and totally empty, like a black hole in your head, no conscience no thougths, just an intuitive fear that paralyzes you. So all your memories or looks like someone else's or horror, and you feel bad because all the people your supposed to love, you can't feel anything for them, it's not you, and you don't even have the impression they're real, all is just a dream, but you can't wake up, never ever. This should definitely be number one.

Misery. It's as if all of your dreams are dead. And the person you were before you got this disorder is dead. You have no idea who you are, what you want, terrible
Memory. No matter what the memory is or how important you forget it immediately. It's very hard to keep days straight. Everything feels like a dream. Nothing feels special. No ambition, no point in life. You are dead, and continue to exist on the planet. Everything seems impossible. Worst mental disability or not second to schizophrenia in my opinion. Kills you before you die.

This explains my whole entire life

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18 Generalised Anxiety Disorder

I was diagnosed with this when I was ten or eleven. It caused me to become physically sick and develop several phobias, many of which I'm still dealing with today. I think my first and worst fear was vomit, which I developed somewhere from age six to eight. I also become physically sick or face intense fear when faced with corners I have to turn (spooked easily because of ADHD, had it all my life), sexual intercourse (feels like committing an unpardonable sin, caused by upbringing, developed around age 12 when I became sexually active), elevators (thanks to the Rockefeller building, developed at age 15), or anything with a steep uphill climb. When I was younger, I had a fear of being left alone, so much to where I would sleep under my youngest sister's bed without her knowledge so I could actually drift off. I think I was desensitized to that by having to be alone for long periods of time. I am currently 19 and attending college as a junior this year. I have my own psychiatrist now, ...more

I have Gad, it's like living a prison. I worry about everything and I can't control them. When I'm at school I don't do anything because I'm so afraid of failing it or doing it wrong, when my mom is late from work I start worrying she got into a car accident, I constantly watch my family members pretty much every single minute I have them just so I make sure they don't die. I lost a lot of friends because of this, they refer me as a "whiny 8 year old" because of my mental illness, very hard to live with. Sometimes I start thinking I don't even deserve a place on earth

If your friends call you a "whiny 8 year old" because of something you can't really control, then they are probably crappy friends.

I live with anxiety everyday, no medication works. Unlike other mental illnesses you can use medication and it might actually do something.
I have never worked, I don't go out, I'm 20 and I've been like this for years. School was a nightmare. Everything is a nightmare. I can't eat normally, I have insomnia because of it, it constantly feels like I'm dying.
I think everyone hates me because I can't do things, no one talks to you, or even cares about how you feel because it's not a "real illnesses".
My doctor is useless and refuses to help.
Sleeping tablets don't work! I've tried so many and they just ware of after a couple days.

Listening to music might help. It has GREATLY decreased my anxiety without any MEDS. It might not work for you though, and it's just a suggestion. - MusicalPony

I have social anxiety disorder. I spend most of my time alone and fear walking in public and meeting people. People tell me I walk fast when they see me in public and that I look like I am in fear. I start sweating whenever I interact.it has given me an eating disorder. it has ruined my life and I cannot do anything about it. I can only imagine what it feels like to be a normal person

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19 Psychosis

I was Diagnosed with Brief Psychotic Disorder at the age of 16 and I've had to live with relapsing episodes for years. Schizophrenia may be bad but any psychotic disorder is just as bad if not worse at times.

I have it, not nice

I had this once. It's not just horrible to have, it's terrifying to have. Voices speak in my head and I can speak back to them. It's creepy!

Signs...have no clue not now...

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20 Depersonalization Disorder

This is by far the worst disorder I have experienced. I have severe anxiety and depression. One time at school I was doing nothing and was just daydreaming about the things I want to achieve in life. Instead of me fulfilling it at real life, I imagine having it in my mind. So I have this world that I created in my mind, which is very scary. This made me view my perception of reality in a very different way. I felt I was not in my body, I felt my body was distorted and wasn't 'right'. I was emotionally detached when talking to my family or friends, I lost lots of friends. Everything seemed 2 dimensional and blurry, my whole body gets numb. This just increased my anxiety more. I even have this 'out-of-body' experiences and I feel that I'm watching myself above and yeah... It's very scary. I have these episodes for like aost everyday and it's really distressing and it affects my relationship with my friends. Made me even feel more depressed because I thought I was 'crazy'. For me, this ...more

I have Anxiety, Autism, and Bipolar disorder but I find this horrifying. The best way I could describe it is living dead. Everyone with it experiences It differently but I have it to the point where it never gets better. It feels like I died a long time ago or I'm trapped in a dream. I lost all motivation and became apathetic. It cuts off my focus and concentration. It made me very suicidal and emotionless. I hurt the people close to me by not caring about them and ignoring them. It really sucks like every mental illness but I feel it's very hard to relate to if you don't have it.

I had this and I already had anxiety. I felt I was being controlled but watched myself helplessly. I feel disconnected from myself and I lost all my friends. Girls used to like me but then they thought I was weird because I was a mute recluse. I grew my hair out to cover my face. I wanted to die so I would be free. It was hell and I had a lot of anxiety problems just much worse. Panic attacks. Unable to express or feel emotion... it was because my anxiety I daydreamed and lost my connection with reality

Probably the worst, yet very rare

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